Some weeks donât just test us. they straightâup heckle us from the cheap seats.
Sickness rolls in. Schedules implode. Emotions do parkour. And suddenly that voice inside gets real loud.
You know the one.
The inner saboteur.
Mine can be vicious. Says harder things to me than a 16âyearâold riding a wicked testosterone boost on exam week. (If you know, you know.)
Hereâs the truth I keep circling back to: we all have that voice. The one that stalls our dreams, secondâguesses our passions, and pokes holes in our purpose just as weâre about to move.
Itâs sneaky. It pretends to be ârealistic.â It wears practicality like a costume.
But itâs not wisdom, itâs fear with a megaphone.
Pick Your Flavor of Struggle đśď¸
Life doesnât come in one spice level.
Some days are mildâmanageable chaos, lukewarm coffee, a win or two.
Other days? Extra hot. Bills. Bodies that need rest. Hearts that need tending.
When sickness hits, or stress stacks up, thatâs when mindfulness matters most.
Not the performative kind.
The listening kind.
Listening to your body.
Listening to your heart.
Listening closely enough to notice when the saboteur starts narrating your worth.
The Reframe That Changes Everything đ
Hereâs a line that changed my life, handed to me by my brilliant partner:
You do you⌠as long as you donât hurt yourself or others.
Simple. Grounded. Kind.
It gave me permission to care for myself without guilt.
To rest without explaining.
To heal without apologizing.
Because selfâcare isnât selfish.
Itâs strategic.
When the Critic Gets Loud đ¤
The inner saboteur loves a tired mind.
It thrives on exhaustion.
It gets bold when weâre sick, overwhelmed, or trying to be everything for everyone.
Thatâs when we pause.
Thatâs when we name it.
Thatâs when we choose differently.
We donât have to fight the voice.
We just donât have to obey it.
Tonightâs Boundary đ
So tonight, Iâm doing something radical.
Iâm placing tomorrowâs worries gently in TomorrowâJulesâ hands.
She can deal with them.
Sheâs got fresh energy and clearer eyes.
Tonight is for rest.
For restoration.
For returning to my truest self.
If you needed permission to do the same, this is it.
You do you, boo.
Rest.
Rise.
Repeat.
And remember: the saboteur talks loud but your heart speaks truth.