🌻 “Or What”  Finding My Calm in the Chaos   August 6th, 2025.   There’s a wild storm around me—emotional wreckage, financial pressure, unspoken words, and love that aches instead of soothes. But somehow, in the middle of it all, I’ve carved out a circle of calm. Not by accident. Not by magic. But with my own two hands.I planted sunflowers this spring. Not just because they’re beautiful—though goddess knows they are—but because I needed something to rise when everything else felt like it was falling. I pressed each seed into the soil like a whispered prayer. I didn’t know then that I was planting hope, boundaries, and self-respect. I just knew I needed something to grow that wouldn’t ask anything of me but presence. Water. Light.                   Now here I sit, surrounded by tall golden sentinels, swaying gently around me like guardians of my peace. Their faces always turned toward the sun—just like I’m learning to do. I crafted a meditation circle at their center. It’s not perfect, but it’s mine. Music flows through the garden like a river of calm, softening the sharp edges of my thoughts.This is my sanctuary. My heartbeat has slowed here. My breath feels like it belongs again. The chaos hasn’t disappeared—but it can’t reach me the same way. Not here. Not in the soil I claimed.—A Question That Echoes: “Or What?”               Lately, there’s been this question playing on repeat in my head. A challenge. A dare from my own spirit: “Or what?” What if I say no to carrying the emotional weight of others?         What if I stop sacrificing my peace just to keep the boat from rocking?           What if I stop trying to fix everyone else and tend to the garden inside me?             Or what?               It’s not fear that asks anymore. It’s fire. It’s the woman in me who’s tired of shrinking to make room for storms that aren’t hers. —Love Hurts, But I Hurt TooI love them both. My son, —hurting in ways I can feel in my bones. My partner—struggling, drowning financially, emotionally, spiritually. But I’m starting to realize… I love me more. And that doesn’t make me cruel—it makes me ready. Ready to stop surviving and start choosing. Ready to live without the constant ache. Ready to ask for more than just space—I want peace. And if I can’t find it in the world around me, then I will damn well grow it with my own hands.     —This Is My Beginning September used to feel like a breaking point. But now I see it as the turning point. So I water my garden. I light a candle at dusk. I write to Lola, my inner voice, my guide. And I sit in my sunflower circle, rooted and real. I’m not waiting for anyone else to save me. I’ve already started saving myself.                —🖤To every woman planting seeds in the middle of her storm—this is your sign. Make your own peace. Grow it. Guard it. And when the world tries to pull you back into the chaos, look it dead in the eye and whisper: “Or what?”

Understanding Triggers: Unveiling the Path to Emotional Healing and Personal Growth

Feeling triggered? A trigger, sometimes referred to as a stressor, is an action or situation that can lead to an adverse emotional reaction. In the context of mental illness, referring to triggers usually means something that has brought on or worsened symptoms. When beginning shadow work and working with a supportive partner, you may startContinue reading “Understanding Triggers: Unveiling the Path to Emotional Healing and Personal Growth”

Change Your Frequency with Musical Therapy: Unlocking the Power of Music for Self-Improvement

Frequency is all around us, from the music we listen to, to the Bluetooth/Wi-Fi devices we use, and even our own bodies. There is a rhythm to life that can bring us good days and bad days. However, with musical therapy, we can use this tool to help us get through any moment in ourContinue reading “Change Your Frequency with Musical Therapy: Unlocking the Power of Music for Self-Improvement”

Working with Affirmations

Affirmations are short, encouraging statements that can help create a more positive frame of mind. The word “affirm” means to validate or confirm. You can repeat affirmations to yourself as often as you’d like, such as while brushing your teeth, driving to work, or before you fall asleep. Growing up in the 80s, 90s, andContinue reading “Working with Affirmations”

The 5 Keys to Balance

The 5 Keys to balancing your mental health are the best tips I’ve ever learned on my journey. These keys not only make you stop and take an internal status check but also give you an opportunity to ensure that you have everything you need for the next step of the adventure of your life!Continue reading “The 5 Keys to Balance”

Another grounding day, this time with my older sister and stepdaughter. Well deserved break from the every day!

Remember to take a moment when the feelings are super stressful and find yourself out in nature to reconnect with your inner being. When outside sources disturb your inner peace, you are no longer connected to your inner guidance system, which prevents you from following your true path in life. Reconnecting to source energy canContinue reading “Another grounding day, this time with my older sister and stepdaughter. Well deserved break from the every day!”

Radiance of the Heart: A Journey of Love and Resilience.

How would you describe yourself to someone who can’t see you? “In the darkness, we find the light within ourselves, and through it, we illuminate the path for others.” ~Jules~ Describing myself to someone without the gift of sight is a journey into the realm of feelings and emotions. Imagine feeling the warmth of aContinue reading “Radiance of the Heart: A Journey of Love and Resilience.”

Creative moments

Which activities make you lose track of time? Creativity Unleashed: Magical Art Step into a world where time vanishes, and creativity knows no bounds. Picture yourself immersed in a realm of endless possibilities, where video editing and creative endeavors reign supreme. From the calming strokes of zen doodles to the intricate craftsmanship of woodwork, everyContinue reading “Creative moments”

The 5 Keys to Balance

The 5 Keys to balancing your mental health are the best tips I’ve ever learned on my journey. These keys not only make you stop and take an internal status check but also give you an opportunity to ensure that you have everything you need for the next step of the adventure of your life!Continue reading “The 5 Keys to Balance”

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